The Struggle Bus

I’ve been on a mission to find this original picture (on the right) to put together a timeline  of my health and fitness journey.

At some point I realized this was my best, fittest, healthiest. That was in September 2014, for my "Before/After” for my Transformation pics right… Stick with me…

Ever since, my ”Healthy habits” haven’t quite been on point and I kept thinking what the heck! I know what I need to do why can’t I just get back on track! #StruggleBus #ForREAL

I went back through A LOT of folders of picture uploads from different phones over the past 4-5 years. It was a reminder at what all I’ve been through and the events that led to my spiral out of control with my Best Healthiest routine I had Finally been able to maintain after struggling with my weight for most my life.

When I finally got to my Goal (45 # down), my “dream body,” (2014) I mean, I still didn't have abs but I felt amazing! 

 I found myself in an unhealthy relationship.

My Granny fell and broke her hip, which led to lot of time in hospitals and rehab nursing homes. It’s been 4 years since she’s been gone now.

3 moves 😳  My first rent house! Only to find it destroyed by my first renter 🤬 and back where I started. 😔

I remember stopping on my way from work to visit with Granny and downing one of those Big mango Rita's on the way to the nursing home. 🤦🏻‍♀️ Looking back, I guess I was using alcohol to suppress my emotions and that made more bad habits around food and exercise even worse. 

I don't know what exactly it was… Slowly but surely I slipped back in my old ways, going out to dinner more often having a drink way to regularly, escaping from my life I wasn't quite Loving anymore.

These little things I was saying to myself, sometimes out loud, sometimes unconsciously in my head, but what I didn’t realize was those negative thoughts were running in the back of my head a lot more than I thought. Every time I looked in the mirror and wasn’t happy with where I was at. Not taking care of my self like I should. Not even putting make up on because “what’s the point” when I only see a couple people per day and felt like “an old dirty maid” 🙄 and "How can I can coach people when I'm not on track?" Ugh! Then I found myself at my highest weight again! How could I have let this happen!

I have done A Lot of personal development the past few years, like a full times job worth. Literally, my wireless ear buds are like just as important as my phone.

I've learned I love to learn, via audio. (I wasn't into the traditional school style of learning)

I've learned that my mindset is what has been holding me back. Those negative recurring thoughts.

I realized I haven't been congruent with living my best life, contributing, & making a positive difference  in the world. I've still been a challenger myself with some of my ride or die ladies (you know who you are 😘) who have always stayed in touch in my wellness groups over the years but I know I can do better. I know I can help more women who struggle like I do.

When I found these pics, the Pic on the left was my inspiration Pic, during the same time I was that small on the right.  I had no idea I was actually close to her body, we are our own worst critic. Don't compare yourself to anyone other than who you were yesterday.

I quickly realized I had to get my mindset back on track & get back to the routine that got me to my goal to begin with!

This time I want to be more transparent about my journey, not just share when things are going right. I know So many struggle in the same ways.

I have always struggled with food and a healthy routine, body image & knowing I am meant to do more with my life.

It's way more than just feeling good in your body. This is about living a longer fuller life! Into old age, Alzheimer’s, dementia, heart issues & diabetes running in my family. My wellness journey is much more important than getting to my goal body now.

It’s about having a healthy heart & healthy brain. 🤓

I finally got that click back in place with my mindset & I want to help you get it too!

If you relate at all to my story or my struggle, feel free to reach out or get started with my Balanced Life Assessment. I am here to help women with some of the same struggles and help you find out if what I do can work for you too!

-Thanks for reading till the end 😘 CA